Well I never shamlessly plug things in my blogstyle emails, but today I am going to make a little plug, there is a website called www.settingcaptivesfree.com and on this wonderful website they are providing 60-90 day courses for free of course to help you kick bad habits and addictions from drugs, to food and all in between. I am currently on "The Lord's Table" course and I must say I am enjoying it, it's really helping me deal with my issues with bad eating habits and confusion etc.
Well, yesterday during my day 6 bible study they asked me if I knew the two types of food and I said yes spiritual and physical, then they went into feeding your spiritual body and I just had an epiphany, OH MY GAWWWD!! I am totally dealing with a spiritual eating disorder. I mean I wake up every morning with the thought that I must have breakfast, lunch, and dinner, and through life I have become so in tune with my physical body that I know when im hungry through hunger pangs and nausea and tiredness, light headedness and a whole slew of symptoms. Now, then I realized I have no idea when my spiritual body is hungry, I am so out of tune with it that I don't feel the spiritual hunger pangs (yes it's actually pangs), I have become completely numb to knowing when I need to eat the spiritual fruit. Spiritual Anorexia maybe? I am so used to starving my poor spiritual body and that I don't even feel when i'm hungry anymore. It's sick guys really it is.
What about Spiritual bulemia? Does it exist? I believe so, I believe you can go without eating, completely binge on the word on sunday, and throw it right back up as soon as you leave the church only tasting the sweetness of the fruit but not actually allowing it to nourish your soul, because God forbid you start gaining spiritual weight, otherwise known as conviction for your wrong doings. We hate to feel spiritually full and fat because it does not feel right so we fill up on the word in the presence of others and then get it out of our systems as soon as we can so we don't have to gain any responsibility for the lifestyles we choose to live. Yes, I do believe spiritual bulemia exists.
Let's bring it to the other side of bad eating ideals, the crash dieters. Are you one? Am I one? Maybe. Always searching for God in the quickest fix you can get him in. "I need to get right, and I need to get right now" "I want to see the fruits quickly so here is 10% hell take 20%" "Oh what's that seek ye the kingom of God first and what............" "Hey God, I am here I am seeking you can I please have that wonderful job car and husband or wife so I can go back to normal" Or we start searching all other types of religions, whatever will come with a warranty "Peace, happiness, confidence, prosperity, or your money back". And as soon as you stop sending in those payments, or doing your chants you start to regain all that baggage, all that weight, all that debt right back into your life. Don't we know that really just holding God's freaking hand and sitting down to the table with him and eating the food he prepares will give you peace eternally? God said that everything he gives us is good to eat so eat it and stop worrying about what each diet tells you to and not to do because if it came from his hands it is good and it will nourish.
Ya'll I want so badly to wake up every morning and say, "God let's have breakfast." Then go to work and do whatever i'm doing and take a break and say "God take me to lunch." Then before bed as im winding down and letting go of the day and settling in say "God what have you prepared for dinner." I want to feel like I am going to pass out when I do not eat God's word, I want a healthy spiritual body with near perfect measurments and a new wardrobe to match. I dont want some crash diet I want to change my life.
"It's not a diet.....It's a lifestyle"
Cherbear
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